I'm using my brother in laws lap top here at the hospital. They're keeping us overnight. We thought we were completely out of the woods being 35 weeks and all but I guess not. So disappointing and sad. I had contractions all night long and this morning we came into labor and delivery for our Peri appt only to find out the girls aren't gaining much weight. They only weigh a few ounces more than they did a month ago. They are estimated at only 3 and 1/2 pounds. My fam is coming to give me a blessing with Shane and tomorrow we'll find out for sure how bad my pre eclampsia really is and if we need to get these babies out. Their heart-rates are high and so is mine in combination with the protein in my urine. I want them to stay in and grow! but sometimes what we want isn't whats best. They may have a better chance at growing in the NICU.
I think my Ambien is kicking in soon so I'll sign off. This has been the most difficult year for us and we're so close but every now and then I just don't feel like smiling anymore. Sometimes I just want to cry and Shane has taught me that its ok to do so. I long for the moment when I can hold them, sing to them, and feel this burning peace in my heart because I know in time they WILL be healthy and strong. Only then I can finally stop holding my breath! Thank you to everyone who has been soooo supportive and uplifting. Goodnight.
December 4, 2008
Quick update.....
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Oh Truly, I am praying for you and girls and I know everything is going to be great. You have had a long and rough 9 months, and you have been smiling the entire time. You are really going to be a wonderful mommy, wait, you already are!
Take care and rest, (I know easier said than done).
Alysha
Good luck with everything, Truly. I'm sure everything will be just fine. You've come so far, so even if this is as far as you go...be proud of yourself!
I am certainly praying for all of you. What a wonderful husband Lindsey is, and what wonderful parents you will be. Love you!
We keep you in our thoughts always! Stay strong! We love you!
Your girls are strong, and they have each other to lean on (literally)! :) I know it is tough to stay positive when the news is up and down all the time, but don’t lose your spunk now! I am a true believer in the strength of the human spirit, and the effect it has on our lives….yours is beautiful, so keep that smile on your face. No matter what, your Father in heaven loves you, and wants what is best for you and your girls. Everything will work out according to plan, and those cuties will be running around, talking, and giggling in no time! I will keep you in my prayers. Stay strong! As Elder Wirthlin said, “come what may, and love it!”
Hi Tru! How exciting, babies today I bet! It has been a long, hard struggle but you are about to be rewarded many times over! -sue
Hey Doll, Worm is praying for you four. Can't wait to see your sweet babys pretty soon.
Shane, Thank you for being so good too Tru.. Tighten your belt and strap on your boots bro,its Daddy time!!! -Ern
Good luck you guys. You deserve it! I hope and pray all will be well!
you have done such a good job keeping those babies in, considering everything you have been through up to this point! consider youself a fantastic mom for doing everything you have to ensure that you got as far as you have so far. It is a very VERY difficult thing to carry twins and you are a CHAMP! everything will be fine. Really it will....just count your blessings and those babies will be home and in your arms in no time. Sometimes its a hard road getting where we want to go. But in the end it is all worth it. This time in your, and their lives is just a hiccup. You will look back on this years from now and realize that the time spent carrying them and the time they may spend growing and gaining in the hospital was just a small fraction of time. good luck truly! your going to be a fantastic mother!!
Hey Truly, this is Charonne (Charayyes sisiter), I have been blog stalking you :-) Good Luck with the babies, I cannot believe all that you have been through physically, but Im sure its much harder emotionally! You are such a trooper, and you have stayed so positive, how do you do it?! We will keep all 4 of you in our prayers
You are amazing. You have done so much for your sweet little girls. Hang in there, I am sure everything will be alright.
I've got all my fingers and toes crossed and I'm sending up prayers every hour. Heavenly Father has brought you and your special family this far and he will get you the rest of the way through, I know it!
I can't wait to see the first pictures posted of your sweet babies. They are destined to be sweet, classy, stylish and oh so very strong, just like their Mommy & Daddy!
What an experience this is for you. You are going to have so much compassion and give so much strength to others because of everything you have been through and learned. I am excited for you guys to be able to start a new chapter in your lives. I can't wait to see the babies. I pray for you, Shane, and the girls every day. I hope to see you all again, sooner rather than later.
good Luck with everything! I know those girls will be healthy! Hang in there!
So glad you are now home.
Thanks for the update!! I tried calling you! You're in our prayers.
Truly- I hope you are doing okay! I know the feeling of wanting the babies to stay in.... I'll include you in my prayers! My babies are 3 weeks / corrected 31 weeks and the NICU has been amazing for them! It's hard to have them there and not be able to hold them and take care of them, but at the same time, it's so nice to not have to worry about them inside and how they're doing.
BTW, don't stress about how they say they measure on the ultrasound. The day I had my boys they measured 1 1/2 pounds each and then later that afternoon when they were born, they were both over 2 pounds.
Good luck!
Hi Truly! I don't know you but my sister and I have recently started following your blog! (we're suckers for twins!) Best of luck you and your husband, and your babies!! Children are such a blessing- your life won't ever be the same!! And I agree with the comment above me- sometimes they don't know how much the baby weighs! They said my daughter was going to be around 8 pounds and she was 9 lb 11 oz! :) God bless.
I'm so glad that you got to go back home and those little gals are still cooking. We are all praying for you. Oh and as a side note I asked Hallie the other day what you were naming your babies in your tummy and she said Hallie and Madison. Hehe!!
Tru we are praying for you. Love you girl and hang in there. You have been so strong. I am so proud of you. Not a lot of people could do this like you have. You are an amazing girl. Stick in there!
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